Working in the adult industry is not as easy as society commonly assumes. However, it does provide many freedoms and options that many people do not get the option of having. A perfect example would be my recent trip to Vegas in July. I purchased a one way ticket to visit an industry friend without knowing how long I was going to stay, or if I would work in a strip club or sugar. The unknown is a freedom not many have the luxury of experiencing and actually enjoying.
Enjoying the unknown is a difficult skill to acquire. From my experience, getting nauseous due to extreme nerves has become a normal thing. I cannot see my life being different. I enjoy going out of my comfort zone, because it makes me feel alive and evolve. Of course, it is uncomfortable and I complain and vent on my blog(http://www.stripclubjournals.com
), but everyone needs a platform. Unfortunately for me, few people have the ability to understand and/or empathize.
In reality, working in a strip club allowed me to fit two months of work into one month. Thus, allowing me to travel to Vegas without loosing income or having to worry about bills. I have never had a “real” job that allowed me this much freedom. This kind of freedom is so rare it is very difficult for people to understand, because they have never experienced living in the grey. People may have visited the grey from their black and white world, but living in the grey is beyond foreign to them. Even my own family still cannot grasp this concept and they have had years to adapt to my ways/world/career.
Sometimes, I do envy people who live in the black and white world just as they envy me. It would be nice to have the guarantee of working x amount of hours for x amount of dollars, but it also would become mundane, predictable, and boring. I know this because I have worked corporate jobs before I started dancing/stripping. Manifesting other people’s dreams and just being a cog in the wheel of society does not make me happy. True, it does take a lot of courage to make your own path in life rather then have one dictated, but the rewards are exponential. Just knowing I can go anywhere in the world and either strip or sugar is beyond amazing. Yes, it takes a certain kind of person to be this spontaneous,. After this lifestyle has been experienced in a responsible manner, it is a freedom that is very difficult to give up, no matter how many people cannot fathom the concept/lifestyle.
Most people cannot fathom getting naked in front of strangers on purpose, let alone traveling with no real direction/plan. However, this is one of the many perks of my lifestyle/career. Every time I go to work whether I strip or sugar I meet strangers to varying degrees. Sometimes, I even get naked on their lap for money in a strip club. Other times, I meet them for lunch or dinner and drinks when I sugar.
My life and industry may seem foreign to most, but it is my reality/world.
Freedom is not free, but it is priceless.