Month: September 2013
Some people will never really understand what it is like to be vulnerable. They view vulnerability as a weakness rather then a strength. After living a taboo lifestyle in the adult industry, I know just how prevalent this viewpoint is in American society.
In the past few weeks I have been pondering how much of my life I am willing to wager for my career. New boundaries have been established with a few people in my life to create happiness for all.
As some doors close, others open … follow the light the future awaits!
Since I’ve been home from Vegas. I’ve only drank at work one night. Not drinking at work allows me to see everything that is really going on. It is an out-of-body experience to say the least, but it does make me smile. The industry is what it is and that is what it will be and no one can really change it. All you can do is change your experience in the industry. Knowing where you want to go and who you want to be are big questions for anyone, but for someone who is constantly being judged it is hard to see clearly that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
This past weekend there weren’t too many girls when I worked in downtown Portland on Saturday night. It was a slow night for a Saturday, but it was also the last weekend of the month(typically slow). My experiences ranged from a big black man traveling from Oakland who told me I was trouble when I gave him a dance, to a 24-year-old bachelor who felt guilty for being in a strip club. I love the variety in downtown Portland. There are people who are from everywhere. After working in Eugene for a few months this year it is a really nice and needed change.
“If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude.”
This past week I had a friend in town and still managed to work three nights in Salem and Pdx. Overall, it was a great week. I indulged in real life and worked at the strip club. This balance is not easy to find. However this week I succeeded.
A shout out to the person who keeps writing rude comments on my blog. Firstly, I am impressed with how much time you have invested in reading my blog and online stalking me personally. I am unsure to who you are for certain but I have an idea. Freedom of speech is a beautiful thing so let us stop this battle before it becomes a war.
Everyone in my life always seems to expect an explanation for some facet of my life/lifestyle. Working in the adult industry is a taboo thing in our society, thus making others curious. Therefore, there are always questions from others. Well, I finally refuse to explain myself or lifestyle any longer. People are free to read my blog here and read my column in Adult Quest Magazine(Strip Club Journals Unbound) if they want insight into the adult industry and/or my lifestyle.
If people in my life cannot love me for the person I have evolved into then they do not belong in my life. People grow apart and it is sad. However, it just may be worse to try to recapture something that once was.
No more explanations to the people in my life. I am me, love me or hate me, but do not judge what you do not know.
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