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Living In Fear-Cluster B Personalities

Remember years ago when the site Ashley Madison was hacked and personal information was leaked to the public? (Read More Here) This is a perfect example of cluster b personality disordered people’s fears coming true. These people live in glass houses and will do anything to keep their glass house/image/ego in tact. If you were an inhuman human would you want people to know? No, because then you would lose so many opportunities to suck the happiness out of others and people would know to keep you at arms distance.

Cluster B personalities live in fear. Their brains do not operate out of love or even know love biologically. Pathology does not love, it destroys. So, the root of the problems with these people starts when we let them close. They are normally highly functioning in society and so they can be hard to spot at times.

The best strategy for dealing with cluster b personality disordered people is to know their fears, because these fears rule their lives. It is sad, but life is very predictable for cluster b people because their default emotions are fear, greed, jealousy, and a few other negative emotions. Without empathy life is really black and white, which explains their inability to see shades of grey, reorganize their thoughts/beliefs, or admit to their own mistakes/weaknesses.

Fears of a Cluster B Personality

  • Abandonment
  • Loss of Control
  • Loss of Resources
  • Fear of Feeling/Looking Inadequate
  • Fear of People Figuring Them Out

As someone who has been exposed to Cluster B personalities from birth, I just assumed some people were evil. However, now I know these people are mentally ill. I started this blog to protect myself and after reviewing the fears of cluster b personalities I now know why I have written about my life for so many years.

When you are close to a cluster b personality disordered person, document your life with them. Take pictures whenever you can and journal about their behaviors. The longer you are around these people, the more confusing their actions. However, the more you can document the more their fears are brought into play, because then they have to worry about being exposed, loosing resources, being abandoned, loosing control, and feeling and/or looking inadequate!

The best weapon with cluster b personality disorders is the truth. They hate the truth and do not want to admit to what they have done.

Up next how to control cluster b personality disordered people when you are not close to them.

Xoxo

ZiFi

Sources

Spartan LIfe Coach YouTube Channel (Click Here)

Women Who Love Psychopaths by Sandra L. Brown

How To Put Cluster B To Work For You!?!

In the adult industry, Cluster B personalities are overwhelmingly common. Customers, entertainers, managers, DJ’s, bouncers, photographers, and so many others are necessary in the equation of the adult industry and none are exempt from having cluster B personality disorders. So how does one survive in the adult industry without becoming personality disordered themselves?… Make money and get out, but have a strategy for dealing with these people.

Narcissists, sociopaths, and other cluster B personality disorders are not like other people biologically(it is not just a mere chemical imbalance). They are without morality, which is the last thing a person is thinking when they are watching a half-naked stripper spin on a pole. Her morality is not going to keep her alive, but her physicality may. The adult industry is much like the military, whom also feeds on cluster B personality disorders due to their lack of morality and the ability to mold them. When you are put in a situation over and over again where your morality will not help your odds for survival, adapting is the only way to overcome.

So, what is the strategy for dealing with cluster B personality disordered people? It is simply knowing their fears and running with them. These people do not know or operate out of love, but rather are fear based biologically. Therefore, their fears rule their worlds.

Stay tuned as I explain how to turn Cluster B personality disorders into job security in the adult industry!

Xoxo

ZiFi

Strip Club Journals 2018

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Never did I imagine, I would still be writing this blog three years after retiring from stripping. I started Strip Club Journals in 2010 to process the emotions and experiences I faced in the adult industry. So where do I go from here?… Well the “real world” is without clear boundaries and this makes people flop like a fish trying to create their own boundaries. After leaving the adult industry, I found people actively trying to erode my personal boundaries and telling me I did not need them any longer because I was no longer surrounded by predators in the adult industry.

Well, these people are the predators. When people try to talk you out of your boundaries they are really just trying to manipulate you! This is something that is overwhelmingly common in the “real world”. Yes, people in the adult industry may try to talk you out of your boundaries. However, when you say “No” they normally stop trying or move onto someone else who is more willing to change their boundaries without a fight. The path of least resistance is a lot cheaper in the adult industry, but in the “real world” people can afford to try to erode your boundaries because there is no cost to them for trying. Talk about confusing and unacceptable!

Where do I go from here with all this information? What kind of books will I write in the future? Will the “real world” get easier as the stigma of the adult industry fades? How do I incorporate all this information into my writing? Have you read about Narcissists? How is our culture becoming more and more like two people who use each other as a tool for masturbation?… So the questions are overwhelming… Stay tuned as I find the answers!

Happy New Year!

Xoxo

ZiFi

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The Adult Industry Saved My Life: A Scapegoat’s Story

As the scapegoat and black sheep of my family, I found great power when I entered the adult industry. For the first time in my life, I was encouraged to say No to people and make toxic people pay for the energy they were trying to take from me. This was when the dynamic completely changed in my life. I took my boundaries everywhere with me and for the first time in my life I knew it was okay and normal to have boundaries. My large extended family, that felt more like a Russian Orthodox cult, had always used me as the shock absorber and the one who could do no right. I was looked at as the difficult/evil child that the whole family was able to use as a whipping boy for all their mistakes, failures, and misfortunes. This allowed the rest of my family to go on being dysfunctional and toxic with the belief that they are victims.

After a lifetime of doing no right it was time to do something different. I was not going to win them over doing the right thing, so why keep trying? Entering the adult industry seemed like the logical thing to do. If I was to do no right, I may as well have a good time and get paid for it. Instead of struggling to do life the “right” way by them, when there was no payoff for this struggle.

The power I found in the adult industry was overwhelming. I had never been so in control of my life and body. The ability to say No and not be punished was amazingly eye-opening. Finally, I felt like I had found a place where I belonged and was rewarded for my boundaries and feelings.

Growing up as the black sheep, I never really questioned this role because I was not like them. Little did I know you have to be mentally ill to be like them. My whole family mocked me for being emotional and/or took joy in making me cry and panic. People with feelings were something that had to be killed and destroyed. Never did I know that empathy was something everyone is supposed to have, because empathy is what made me subhuman to these people I called family.

Due to being raised in a large extended family, the family dynamic was rarely nuclear. My cousins were closer to my siblings. The first grandchild was the golden child, who could do no wrong, and I came second as the scapegoat, who could do no right. Well now the golden child is a violent offender, felon, single(never married) mom, and underachiever with a mental disorder. Yet, she is feared and looked at like a peer from my Mom and her brothers and sisters. There are no generational boundaries in a Narcisstic family unit. Whoever can make the most noise and cause the biggest scene is the person who gets to retain control and power of writing the story.

The golden child took after my mom with her cluster b personality disorder. They both are emotionally unstable and not worried about causing a scene to get their way, but always seem to end up the victim of their circumstances. Narcissists are professional victims till the day they die.

A scapegoat is used to deflect the truth in a Narcissistic family unit. They only support this member of the family when their actions reflect their inferiority. I always wondered why my family would not help me unless I was literally near death or disaster. Now I realize they will only help me when they are at risk of loosing their scapegoat, because without me they have to take accountability for their own actions. It does not look good for a grown adult to not have accomplished anything and to keep going in circles using people.

Well this is me taking accountability for my actions. I will no longer be a scapegoat for the Kudearoff family. They can take their small towns and small minds and be accountable for their own actions. I found my truth and my power in the adult industry and they can never take it away again!

Xoxo

ZiFi

 

Cluster B Personality Disorders-The Persona of Evil

Cluster B personality disorders are something we do not talk about in society often enough. These people are biologically different from the rest of society:  inhuman humans. Empathy is the massive missing key they will never attain. Cluster B people cannot correct their disorder with medication and/or therapy. However, their behaviors can be changed on a conscious level if they choose to address them.

Have you ever seen a person with hollow empty eyes? A person who seems to be missing their soul? Have you noticed someone with the absence of empathy or ability to relate to others? Do you know someone who believes they are extremely better than everyone else? These people have personality disorders.

Borderline Personality Disorder, Antisocial Personality Disorder, and Narcissistic Personality Disorder are all cluster B personality disorders. BPD people have experienced trauma before 18 months of age and their brain activity reflects their lack of ability to process and feel emotions. Being human to them is not an option biologically. They are the emotional cluster B personality disorder:  emotionally unstable and unregulated. BPD people often grow into a “dark triad” due to their mistreatment of others. If they admitted and took accountability for their actions their self-perception would be damaged.

People with BPD move on to become covert narcissists and sociopaths. This sounds outlandish right? Yes, it does, but it is way easier to believe in cluster B personality disorders than these people having a heart just like you and me. They believe they are good people because they do not possess the feelings the rest of us do that enable us to identify how we are making others feel. If you cannot feel the pain you cause others, then you will just cause more pain. The way their brain works is sadly simple and noncomplex.

These are black and white people who do not see shades of grey!

Xoxo

ZiFi


Sources:

Thrive After Abuse, You Tube Channel >>Click Here<<

Science Daily, Borderline Personality Traits Linked to Lower Empathy >>Click here<<

We Need To Talk with Kris Godinez, Yout Tube Channel >>Click Here<<

Spartan Life Coach, You Tube Channel >>Click Here<<

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