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Spiritual Awakening After Narcissistic Abuse

After learning about Narcissists and Cluster B Personality Disorders, my whole life changed. No longer did I try to connect with my family and/or my partner in life. Finally realizing that “these people” are never going to understand me or my way of thinking. I found freedom from the chains that had held me stuck for a lifetime. The gap I had tried to bridge was like trying to get a black and white television to play in Technicolor. Cluster B personality disordered people are very much like a black and white television.

Realizing and coming to terms with the fact that I grew up in a Russian Orthodox Narcissistic multi-generational family cult was overwhelming. The facts went together easily, but the feelings in my heart did not follow with such ease. I still find myself pushing my emotional spectrum onto my family members and ex-partner in vain. For now, I know that biologically they do not have the ability to understand how my mind works and/or see the world in Technicolor.

After learning about my family, my partner, and narcissism my world collapsed as I knew it. I was no longer the “crazy” person I had been raised to believe I was. I am literally the only sane person in a large extended family where herd mentality rules. Learning that my struggles throughout my life had a rhyme and reason was the largest dose of freedom I have ever received.

How can one continue on this journey in life without having a spiritual awakening after learning of the lies they lived for a lifetime?

Xoxo

ZiFi

Tips To Rebuild Self Esteem After Narcissistic Abuse

After narcissistic abuse, we are left a shell of who we once were. Recovery is a time for rebuilding and remembering who we are and who we want to be. This is one of the largest parts of recovery, because often we did not even realize we lost part of ourselves until it was too late. The little pieces of our soul we gave away willingly to make other people happy add up and we are left with a hole in our hearts and souls. Rebuilding your self-esteem is an essential part of narcissistic abuse recovery.

Here are 16 tips to build self-esteem:

  1. Avoid negative self talk and stop the inner critic.
  2. Connect with people you love.
  3. Learn to be assertive.
  4. Take care of yourself-practice self-care.
  5. Be mindful.
  6. Change your story(your inner narrative).
  7. Exercise.
  8. Volunteer.
  9. Practice forgiveness with yourself and others.
  10. Use positive affirmations.
  11. Learn to accept compliments.
  12. Affirm your worth-make a list of your positive qualities.
  13. Practice gratitude.
  14. Be kinder to other people
  15. Try something new.
  16. Stop comparing yourself to others.

Xoxo

ZiFi

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Source:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/nurturing-self-compassion/201703/8-steps-improving-your-self-esteem

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11 Tips On How To Acknowledge The Truth & Forgive Yourself After Narcissistic Abuse

Realizing you were living in a fake reality is one of the hardest parts of recovering from Narcissistic abuse. No one wants to believe someone they loved would want to con them. However, this is the reality when it comes to narcissistic abuse. Narcissists are not capable of real love and so they use love as a weapon.

Here are 11 tips on how to acknowledge the truth and forgive yourself after narcissistic abuse:

  1. Realize this was not a real relationship.
  2. They controlled you to gain power.
  3. The Narc had complete cognitive knowledge of what they were doing.
  4. The abuse was a working mechanism that the Narc used to control you, manage you down, isolate you, disable you and use you to meet their needs.
  5. The why does not matter, you cannot fix a personality disordered person.
  6. Love was used to con you into the abuse by gaining your trust and commitment to them.
  7. Intellectually understand this is a personality disordered person.
  8. Emotionally realize this was Not Real love.
  9. Purge the negative messages that were planted in your head-these were only put there to control you.
  10. Take care of yourself-mentally and physically.
  11. You have the ability to achieve true happiness and the ability to love normally, the Narc does not have this option/ability.

Xoxo

ZiFi

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The Biological Cause Of Personality Disorders

Over the past few months, I have researched the biological cause of personality disorders. With so many toxic people in our society there has to be a physical component to mental disorders and mental health. I went down the rabbit hole with this one, so be open-minded as you read my hypothesis of what causes personality disorders and so many other health conditions in our modern-day society. Also, note that this is just my findings based on a life of toxic people, a career in the adult industry, years of research, and logic.

I was raised in a large extended family. My Mother’s parents immigrated to the US during WWII from Russia and China. My grandparents lived on the west coast and had ten children. These children, my aunts and uncles, have been my research subjects for a lifetime.

Immigrants have a higher rate of personality disorders and mental illness.(1) I did not know this growing up, but I did know that my family was different from most American families. As a child, I assumed this was cultural differences. However, now I know most of them are mentally ill and/or personality disordered.

When I chose a partner in life, I too picked an immigrant who is personality disordered. This was all I knew. In my eyes, family was an uncomfortable group of insecure people who took joy in the barriers and obstacles of one another. They even created more obstacles for each other whenever possible, because they could not share in the joys of each other’s successes. With this kind of family unit there was a vast array of different health conditions and concerns.

First, I looked at ulcers. My partner has ulcerative colitis and I searched for ways to make him healthier, but the real discovery came when I looked at the cause. Ulcers are caused by a parasite and are linked to personality disorders of all kinds.(2) This made sense and the research is limited, but still there to concrete the connections.(3) Therefore, an immigrant with ulcerative colitis is extremely likely to be personality disordered. This starts to bring the cause of personality disorders into perspective with a tangible contagious biological cause/source.

Parasites cause ulcers and are contagious. This explains why being in an intimate relationship with a personality disordered person can cause mental disorders and/or distress.(4) There are so many different points of view on why being close to a person who is mentally ill and/or personality disordered causes troubles, but the one thing that seems to be agreed upon is they do cause “fleas”.(5)

From here, I ran into a study that linked schizophrenia and other mental disorders to parasites.(6) If cats can be linked to spreading parasites that cause mental illnesses what makes us think that people cannot be spreading these parasites that cause mental disorders/diseases/illnesses?(7) There are many studies on this subject and the proof is there. However, it is rarely discussed. If this research was mainstream would anyone go to a mental hospital or inpatient program for mental health?(8)

With this information, I researched parasites in general.(9) Parasites are extremely common throughout the world with millions of people effected and most unknowingly. The research is not ample or extensive because the funding is not there. If many of our health problems are caused by parasites, then the healthcare industry would take a major hit to their profits. Parasites have been known to cause seizures for example. If these people did a natural parasite cleanse rather than taking pharmaceuticals to treat seizures they could find long-term relief. However, there is no profit for the medical/healthcare industry in making people healthy.

With all this information linking together parasites, mental illnesses, personality disorders, ulcers, and immigrants the connections are there. Where will we allow these links to take us?

Xoxo

ZiFi

Sources

  1. Mood, anxiety, and personality disorders among first and second-generation immigrants to the United States. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4258138/
  2. Association between peptic ulcer and personality disorders in a nationally representative US sample https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20716707
  3. Temporal Comorbidity Of Mental Disoders and Ulcerative Colitis https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4315378/
  4. Is BPD Contagious https://www.quora.com/Is-borderline-personality-disorder-contagious
  5. We Need To Talk With Kris Godinez, Fleas https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D82VVB8iOb4
  6. Toxoplasma Gondi, Parasite In Cat Feces, Linked To Schizophrenia And Other Mental Illness http://www.medicaldaily.com/toxoplasma-gondii-parasite-cat-feces-linked-schizophrenia-and-other-mental-illness-337030
  7. Toxoplasma gondii and Schizophrenia https://wwwnc.cdc.gov/eid/article/9/11/03-0143_article

  8. Targeting Common Parasite Could Help Treat Certain Mental Disorders https://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/schizophrenia-and-psychoses/targeting-common-parasite-could-help-treat-certain-mental-disorders/article/403368/
  9. Parasitic Infections also occur in the United States  https://www.cdc.gov/media/releases/2014/p0508-npi.html