About three years ago I stopped blogging about my personal life. Before that my blog was filled with strip club and sugar experiences. However, then I dived into journalism and decided to keep my story to myself. In retrospect, this was probably one of the biggest mistakes I made in my writing career and branding Strip Club Journals. In keeping my story to myself and shutting out the outside world I shut out my readers and for this I apologize. I was not living in my truth for the sake of others. So here we are with a new beginning this fall and I intend to catch y’all up and let you have a little window into what my life is like now.
What is the last thing you remember reading?
Do you remember Mr. Utah?
Do you remember when I moved?
Did you know just Haywood and I drove to Vegas together to start our new life here?
Where should I start with my adventures into ordinary?
I have finally given into social media! So, in my efforts to reach more people I have started a public Instagram. Ever wonder what my day looks like? Or what my random thoughts are? Or what my behind the scenes rambles are? Well here is your opportunity to witness my madness … I hope you enjoy the window into my life!
Many people have been asking and assuming my role in the adult industry recently. I attended an awards show this past week and I had to catch people up greatly. So, let me go ahead and clarify for those of you readers who are both old and new!
The past few years have been filled with writing, traveling, and conventions. However, just because I have taken a break from the public eye does not mean I have not been manifesting. I hope you all have been well and I get to meet more of you at upcoming conventions and events!
Here I sit in my bed at home in Las Vegas writing on my new laptop. My birthday was last Friday and over the weekend was Exxxotica Denver, so it has been busy to say the least. Plus, I recently got a new rescue dog so leaving home for a work trip was extremely more difficult than normal.
In my daily life, I am ordinary and work from home mostly alone and love it. After years in dark bars surrounded by drunken people who are unpredictable, I enjoy being in a controlled environment. Conventions are the part of my career I push myself to go out of my comfort zone and be surrounded by people again. My nerves are apparent, but I doubt people know why I am nervous. It took me till this past weekend to realize going out of my ordinary controlled environment I have created here in Las Vegas causes me social anxiety. I love to travel and go places for fun, but mix in work and having to talk to people and I turn into a bit of a wreck.
After this realization I felt a bit of relief, but I cannot say I have found a solution. Today has been a day of self-care and loving myself for conquering my comfort zone. Starbucks, laser hair removal, chiropractor, quality time with the dogs, and a trip to the medical marijuana dispensary have all been apart of my day of getting back into my ordinary groove. I love my life at home and have finally created a life I do not feel like I need a vacation from.
This weekend was the adult convention Exxxotica in Colorado. It was an intimate gathering of adult stars, webcam models, press, and fans. For a weekend we invaded Denver to create a tangible adult industry community to remind us all why we do what we do.
People bombard me with their questions about fun at these events and it drives me absolutely insane. I am blessed to have the career I have created after retiring from stripping. However, I also believe work when mixed with passion should be fun/enjoyable. Mainstream society has such a skewed view of the adult industry and the work that goes on to keep the adult world available to the general public. It only makes sense that we like to get together and mingle with others who understand our work lives.
Work is work, but if you are fulfilling your purpose it should be fun(no matter the industry).
“Success is no accident. It is hard work, perseverance, learning, studying, sacrifice and most of all, love of what you are doing or learning to do.” ~Pele