Never did I imagine, I would still be writing this blog three years after retiring from stripping. I started Strip Club Journals in 2010 to process the emotions and experiences I faced in the adult industry. So where do I go from here?… Well the “real world” is without clear boundaries and this makes people flop like a fish trying to create their own boundaries. After leaving the adult industry, I found people actively trying to erode my personal boundaries and telling me I did not need them any longer because I was no longer surrounded by predators in the adult industry.
Well, these people are the predators. When people try to talk you out of your boundaries they are really just trying to manipulate you! This is something that is overwhelmingly common in the “real world”. Yes, people in the adult industry may try to talk you out of your boundaries. However, when you say “No” they normally stop trying or move onto someone else who is more willing to change their boundaries without a fight. The path of least resistance is a lot cheaper in the adult industry, but in the “real world” people can afford to try to erode your boundaries because there is no cost to them for trying. Talk about confusing and unacceptable!
Where do I go from here with all this information? What kind of books will I write in the future? Will the “real world” get easier as the stigma of the adult industry fades? How do I incorporate all this information into my writing? Have you read about Narcissists? How is our culture becoming more and more like two people who use each other as a tool for masturbation?… So the questions are overwhelming… Stay tuned as I find the answers!
Happy New Year!
P.S. AVN Awards are quickly approaching…Who would you like to know more about?
About three years ago I stopped blogging about my personal life. Before that my blog was filled with strip club and sugar experiences. However, then I dived into journalism and decided to keep my story to myself. In retrospect, this was probably one of the biggest mistakes I made in my writing career and branding Strip Club Journals. In keeping my story to myself and shutting out the outside world I shut out my readers and for this I apologize. I was not living in my truth for the sake of others. So here we are with a new beginning this fall and I intend to catch y’all up and let you have a little window into what my life is like now.
What is the last thing you remember reading?
Do you remember Mr. Utah?
Do you remember when I moved?
Did you know just Haywood and I drove to Vegas together to start our new life here?
Where should I start with my adventures into ordinary?
I have finally given into social media! So, in my efforts to reach more people I have started a public Instagram. Ever wonder what my day looks like? Or what my random thoughts are? Or what my behind the scenes rambles are? Well here is your opportunity to witness my madness … I hope you enjoy the window into my life!
Fall nears and I wonder what all will happen during the busy season before year-end. Moving to a different house in Las Vegas this month has been a cramp in my style. Plus, I am experiencing extreme burn out after writing and publishing two books this past year. So, the logical step is to take a step back, relax, and fine tune everything before I go forward.
Oregon bound in a couple of days for some responsibilities. It is like a working vacation mixed with some family. I am excited to eat the amazing food in Oregon. I miss the farm fresh restaurants and how many vegan and gluten-free options they have available.
I wish I had more to update y’all on, but searching for houses has really made me question how some people live? The struggle of first world problems has been extremely intense.
Many people have been asking and assuming my role in the adult industry recently. I attended an awards show this past week and I had to catch people up greatly. So, let me go ahead and clarify for those of you readers who are both old and new!
The past few years have been filled with writing, traveling, and conventions. However, just because I have taken a break from the public eye does not mean I have not been manifesting. I hope you all have been well and I get to meet more of you at upcoming conventions and events!